I’ve always been drawn to music. Actually, immersed is probably a more accurate word. From a very early age, I relied on music to help me understand how I was feeling and heal. By 4 years old, music was a habit. I’ve even started a pet-project blog recently called Big Hair Blog, dedicated to 80s hair bands. Not really the most soul-searching type of sound, but a lot of fun.

When I separated from my ex-wife my emotions ranged from utterly depressed to rage by the hour. As usual, I turned to music to try and hang on to some sanity. I have never felt so powerless over my emotions. During that first couple of years, I listened to a lot of music. One song, in particular, got me through many a day: I’m Above by Mad Season. For several months this was my Mantra. Granted it’s a bit angry, but that’s what I needed at the time.

I’m Above

For clear space and soundness of mind
I’ve let you play me for some time
One can only receive and retain
But the lies you recite for your gain

So you rely on my faith in your kind
Or rather continue to pretend that I’m blind
You say I made your life a living hell
And yet still let me pay you when I fell

How is it you’re feeling so uneasy?
How is it that I feel fine?
Life reveals what is dealt through seasons
Circle comes around each time
I’ve been blessed with eyes to see this
Behind the unwhole truth you hide
Bite to remind the bitten, bigger
Mouth repaying tenfold wide

I’m above
Over you I’m standing above
Claiming unconditional love
Above

Try to keep bad blood in the past
Never thought a chance, a chance it would last
I have strength enough, enough to forgive
I desire peace where I live

I’ve been blessed with eyes to see this
Behind the unwhole truth you hide
Bite to remind the bitten, bigger
Mouth repaying tenfold wide
How is it you’re feeling so uneasy?
How is it that I feel fine?
Life reveals what is dealt through seasons
Circle comes around each time

I’m above
Over you I’m standing above
Claiming unconditional love
Above

I’m above
Over you I’m standing above
Claiming unconditional love
Above

I’m above
Over you I’m standing above
Claiming unconditional love
Above

I hope this provides a healthy outlet for other divorcing dads.